Nicholas starts kindergarten!

My baby Nicholas has started kindergarten. He is so excited every morning for a new adventure.
Everyone told me I was gonna cry, but I didn't. I didn't want him to see me sad, I wanted to keep this experience happy for him. But...........on his second day I let him ride the school bus. Me being the crazy parent I am....*cough* I put him on the bus and than followed the bus in my car......u know just to make sure he made it there. I have to slowly learn how to let go a LITTLE.
I wonder how it will be with the next kid....they say it easier with the second. He or she will probably just get to walk to the bus stop by themselves. I kid I kid, I am sure I will still be psycho stalker mommy. lol.

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Misconception of Conception**Baby making Machines**

So this will be my MOST personal blog yet. What am about to reveal something most of family doesn't even know....thank GOD they don't read my blog. So here it is.......brace yourself!!! I want another baby!!! I know that sounds so easy right, well it isn't at all. Not for me this time around anyways.

Most women spend the first half of their life trying not to get pregnant right? After i had my son i knew that i was DONE. Tie them up, burn it off, and sew it up cause i wont be needing IT anymore....but recently that all has changed. I want another baby, i have the worst baby fever ever....its so bad.

I recently started doing some research, 1st stop my OBGYN. I had the mirena(birth control) and needed to get that removed. I also had a lot of questions for my doc. Next stop......dreaded google! LOL, I don't even know why I tortured myself with that. What I found out was soo depressing. For instance calculatorslive.com says that i had a %80 chance of getting pregnant within a year. I didn't want to wait a yr!! All of these different websites have you checking your cervical mucus, buying ovulation tools, telling your mate not to wear tightey whitey LOL, and checking your body basal temperature. I was in over my head I quickly found out.

Another thing I ran across online was all the heart wrenching stories of people my age struggling to get pregnant. I think most people think when they are ready it will just happen, that is not the case at all. We see older ladies having twins and 16yr old knocked up and you think to yourself "what the hell?!" Now don't get me wrong I think every women no matter what age deserves to have a child if that is their choice.

So my journey is under way, and I too have found out that it isn't as easy as you think. My son was planned and I remember it happening so fast!!! This time around, not so much. I recently started doing some charting which includes my body basal temp, ovulating days etc.... But even if I do everything right, there is only a slim chance of me getting knocked up.

Now it has been 7 months and about 30 pregnancy test later(15 bucks a box) I am now pregnant and very excited.
Sorry if this blog is all over the place, its all choppy because i just keep adding to it.

How you get a Baby in your Belly:)

This is one of my favorite videos of Nicholas. Listen to my baby explain how you get a baby in your belly!!! The cutest thing!He really wants a lil sis. I just love his lil self to itty bitty pieces!

Support your local Farmers

I get so excited this time of year. The Farmers Market is here! We all get to enjoy fresh fruit, vegetable, and yummy goodness. Its a really cool time for our community to get together. You should check to see if your town/city has one! Everything there is super cheap! Where else can you get a pound of huge cherries for 3 bucks or a big bouquet of flowers for 5bucks. Live music from local artist to top it off!! Nicholas and I always have a good time.

Ace of Cakes

Every 2 weeks I write a list of things that I what to conquer with Nicholas. The list is mostly filled with cool new parks I find online or just random little things that give him a little culture. This weeks list was to bake a "professional" cake. We now have a new hobby to enjoy with each other. Tomorrow we will make a new creation, maybe a three layered wedding cake!!!!(That might be a lil ambitious but what the heck)LOL

Confessions of a border line "Big Gurl"

"damn b-t-h what happen to your thighs" "your gonna be fat just like your aunt" "She needs to lose weights, does she think he likes that" "...uuummmm don't you have a gym membership?"

All of these things were said directly to me, or I have over heard someone say these things about me.
So where do I begin.....dealing with my "new" body has been a challenge. I guess I should start with how I gained the weight. After i had my son, I probably weighted about 150. My body started to bounce back into shape fairly quick. I didn't have to work out. The hustle and bustle of being a "single" working parent did a body good. I also cooked dinner every night and took a lunch to work everyday. I was back to a size 5 in no time.

Now fast forward to the "change" No more long distance relationship. I had a partner to enjoy the the city with. I enjoyed every little morsel of food this place had to offer. They say when your in love you gain weight, well I didn't just gain weight i gained a love for food. I wanted to taste, sample, and devour every piece of culture i could get my fingers on. My second down fall...working downtown(The food Mecca). I stopped taking my lunch to work and started sampling every pastry shop. I indulged myself in everything I wanted. I mean who orders a bagel with two cream cheese.

So that brings us to the present day. I am the heaviest I have ever been. It seems like my family has more of a problem with it than I do. I don't hate my body. I do see things that I would love to change(IE:my belly and chin). My family has made dealing with my body very unpleasant to say the least. My mom hates my choice in clothing( See blog post "Hold my hand while you cut me down" she is one of the people i am talking about.)


It would be a lie if I said the things they say don't sting a little. Sticks and stone may break my bones but words will never hurt...such a lie. A person doesn't need to hear that they are "fat" every time you see them. I mean shit I see myself naked everyday. I know what am working with.

I guess what I am trying to say is.....I LOVE ME. Do I have my ideal body? NO!!, but I feel guuuuaaaadd in my skin. When I am home I feel sexy and loved.. when I am ready to workout I will. It will come on my own time. So in the words of Tyra Banks."Y'all can kiss my FAT ASS!!!

Hold my hand while you cut me down

They say that imitation is the best form of flattery...well am little confused.

How can you criticize someone about their outfit, but call later to ask where they got it from....and than take it ten steps further and wear the fit the next time we go out.
I get the "Hey you know those sandals you bought the other day, they weren't that cute when i saw them the first time. Girl they have them here way cheaper than the price you payed. Should i get them?"

I mean this crap has to stop!! Whats the point really?!